Dear Camryn,
I never wanted it to be this way. I wanted to tell you these
things myself, but I was afraid. I was afraid that if I told you out loud that
I loved you, that what we had together would die with me. The truth is that I
knew in
Kansas that you were the one. I’ve loved you since that day when I first looked up into your eyes as you glared down at me from over the top of that bus seat. Maybe I didn’t know it then, but I knew something had happened to me in that moment and I could never let you go.
Kansas that you were the one. I’ve loved you since that day when I first looked up into your eyes as you glared down at me from over the top of that bus seat. Maybe I didn’t know it then, but I knew something had happened to me in that moment and I could never let you go.
I have never lived the way I lived during my short time with
you. For the first time in my life, I’ve felt whole, alive, free. You were the
missing piece of my soul, the breath in my lungs, the blood in my veins. I
think that if past lives are real then we have been lovers in every single one
of them. I’ve known you for a short time, but I feel like I’ve known you
forever.
I want you to know that even in death I’ll always remember
you. I’ll always love you. I wish that things could’ve turned out differently.
I thought of you many nights on the road. I stared up at the ceiling in the
motels and pictured what our life might be like together if I had lived. I even
got all mushy and thought of you in a wedding dress and even with a mini me in
your belly. You know, I always heard that s*x is great when you’re pregnant.
;-)
But I’m sorry that I had to leave you, Camryn. I’m so
sorry…I wish the story of Orpheus and Eurydice was real because then you could
come to the Underworld and sing me back into your life. I wouldn’t look back. I
wouldn’t f*ck it up like Orpheus did.
I’m so sorry, baby…
I want you to promise me that you’ll stay strong and
beautiful and sweet and caring. I want you to be happy and find someone who
will love you as much as I did. I want you to get married and have babies and
live your life. Just remember to always be yourself and don’t be afraid to
speak your mind or to dream out loud.
I hope you’ll never forget me.
One more thing: don’t feel bad for not telling me that you
loved me. You didn’t need to say it. I knew all along that you did.
Love Always,
Andrew Parrish
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Well, guys. I’ve just read a Novel by J. A
Redmerski. Who’s know, The Edge of Never? Yep. Gue baru aja mulai baca itu
novel. Karna penasaran, makanya bacanya sambil loncat-loncat ke chapter
paliiiiiiing bawah. Dan menemukan sebuah srat yang sedih; iya, romantis; iya, ngegemesin
juga; iya.
Duuuuhh…pokoknya pas nemu sepenggal surat yang
ditulis si Andrew ini, hati gue tuh kayak langsung terenyuh gitu. Sampe pengen
nyakar-nyakar tembok saking menyentuhnya.
Gila, gila, gila. Gak kebayang kalo punya pacar
yang kayak Andrew. Bahasanya boooo’, bikin meleleh tingkat FIFA ini mah *loh?*
Gimana enggak meleleh. Udah baca kan isi surat
di atas? OH MY GOD. It’s fckin sweet :3 mihiihihi…. Mauuu dong digituin
wkwkkakkak :D
By the way, udah dulu ya guys. Mau lanjutin baca
novel ini nih! *lap keringet* *lupain deadline bikin cerbung* hahhahahah :D
See you, bubyyeee all.
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